Introduction!

Introduction

There's something that I have been told to do for years and that's to share my life with the masses and I have been putting it on the back burner for quite some time,  however I have decided to dedicate this blog to my life experiences dealing with being autistic as a child and being in and out of special education programs.
I will be talking about how my childhood was ravished by my father and him molesting me under the false pretenses that he was a man of God and dealing with extreme fear and abandonment and being rejected and being voiceless and silent for years. To this very day I'm a much better writer than a talker. 
I carried so much weight around my shoulders that I turned to drugs and prostitution to escape from feeling the pain and depression within. I suffer from a mental illness called borderline personality disorder and that was caused by my father molesting me and my mother rejecting and completely abandoning me. 
Dealing with being autistic and having borderline personality disorder is extremely painful for I will just say that I didn't make the best decisions in my life.  This is raw and uncut and uncensored pure unapologetic and the unadulterated truth of what its like to never feel comfortable within my own skin.
Let's take this trip together and I can tell you what happened and what its like now!

Karlynda K. Stebbins

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