Seeking The Lord.

Heavenly Father,
May I seek your face towards the thoughts and plans and the purpose that you have for me. I know that I am struggling with my new identity in you oh Lord. You say in your word that once someone honestly comes to you that they are a new creation in you.
I'm not understanding what this means exactly for you know that I have had identity issues all of my life. I'm wearing my own mental faculties down and I have turned away from the life of drugs and prostitution and now the gay lifestyle and pornography and as you are well aware of the fact I have borderline personality disorder and autism to deal with.
This is a very monumental task that you have anointed me with to write this book and to make myself completely vulnerable and forthcoming and open to you and I want to do this well, however how am I going to be able to find out what you want to show me?
Getting out of the life of drugs and prostitution I had the judicial system here on earth to aid me now I have the courts of Heaven to deal with regarding getting out of the gay lifestyle. I must admit my flesh had alot of fun times until I couldn't even get out of bed for days due to severe depression. I rather sleep life away then to deal with the truths of the matter. 
Father,  I'm just now waking up from the delusions and illusions that Satan has put up deep into my psyche.  As you know I have been to therapist after therapist and to no avail. For you are the mighty therapist and physician and I'm trying to trust you for I know that you don't want my life to be a veil of tears.
I cover this in your blood and I say this in Jesus name Amen!
Your Daughter,
Karlynda

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